Why Before the Morning?

I'm sure it's been killing you to know why I name my blog what I did. For one, fuckyouinfertility was already taken. Just kidding. Only I'm totally serious.

And when I found out the possibility that my chances of conceiving were seriously questionable: 1) We had moved to northeast Ohio a few months before, and I didn't have any friends here. (Side note: I still don't have any friends here, but that it neither here nor there) And 2), hubby was in Ft. Bragg, NC for the month. I was all. alone.

So being the emotional basketcase I am, I cried. And cried and cried and cried. And being the music lovah that I am, got the praise and worship jams going. But on constant repeat was Josh Wilson's "Before the Morning". I have always loved that song, and it speaks to me everytime I hear it. Google it, even if you're not Christian. It's that good. Cause the pain that you've been feeling, can't compare to the joy that's coming...

So that, kids, is why I named this blog after that song.

Small update: I have to take another break from IUI-ing it up since the loss. Of course my RE didn't tell me that during my visit (grrrrrrr!) but he wants me to take 2 months off to let my hormone levels normalize. Since I'm PMS-ing like a MOFO right now, I'd say is right around the corner.

And I promise to update more often. Between vacay, 2 jobs, volunteering, and everything else going on, life it a little cray cray.